Goin Sideways

Little more background. I was home schooled by my Mom from 4th grade thru 12th. I was truly blessed with that. My mother's faith has always been a source of amazement for me, and her commitment to seeing me educated the way she and Dad thought was best has been a blessing to me throughout my life. However, all that Bible based schooling, being raised in a Christian household, and regular chruch didn't stop me from takin' a walk on the wild side.

Let's see, I started drinking around 16, and when I hit college I went all out. During my first year of college, Mom had a broken back (got knocked over by a horse) and Dad had a kidney transplant. Add that to a full class load, four part time jobs, and keeping up a farm cause I lived at home. So, since I'd decided to turn my back on God, I decided Jack Daniels would be a good substitute.

Well, long story short on that. I've had alcohol poisoning three times, and never been to a hospital. I did manage to graduate college, and started out my first job doin well in Philadelphia. By this time I felt that I was so far from God, that he wouldn't have me back. So, I kept goin. Women, lots of booze, experimenting with illegal stuff. Then I really got screwed up and wound up with an abortion on my record and a psychotic girlfriend that got me started on a web of lies to my parents.

Lying to my parents. Now that was truly hell. It ate at me constantly. Finally after three years, Miss Psycho did me a favor, screwed up royally, and gave me a good excuse to kick her out. After that was finished, I went home and fessed up to my parents. I had to set the record straight.

Fast forward a little bit. I was transfered to Houston to help start a new division in the company I worked for. I was feeling good. I was makin good money, had a great place to live, nice truck, and lots of "entertainment". Something was still off though. I still hadn't forgotten about God, my upbringing, or what it meant to be a Christian. Still wasn't ready to go back though. I was having too much fun when I wasn't hung over.